I have to say it's been a good day, so far. Yeah, I know, it's 6 at night but let's recall that I got off work around 7:30am & crashed until 2pm. But thanks to one of my favourite co-works named Petie (it's a she, Petie's a nickname), off-brand aleve, solid sleep, & Passion Pit Radio on Pandora...My mood's a bit up right now. It's the best I've felt in weeks. I actually made food on the stove...& most amazing?
...I have kept this mood despite going out in public...in a tank top. My arms are one of my biggest spots of insecurity & usually I freak out at the thought of them being exposed. But I went out w/ them & the recently gained weight which makes me even more gargantuan &...while a little self-conscious...it wasn't the end of the fucking world. Imagine that.
I might be slowly falling back in love w/ Jrock. We never broke up but it was cooling. But Re-finding some old favourites, stumbling onto an alice nine. song from last year that I missed but love, & Chemical Pictures is re-starting things. Now if only I didn't start out each day wondering what else can happen in that particular fandom.
Work has been rougher post-vacation, due to being about a month late for injections. All the old pain & humiliation is rearing its ugly, ugly head; combine that w/ the stress of work (working short staffed has made everyone touchy as hell lately) & the stress of home (mom's on her usual crazy)...I've had a really shitty attitude, quite honestly. Hopefully not dealing w/ as much pain/fatigue will make me less of a horrendous bitch.
I also think it's time for me to seriously get off my ass & move out but that's another post another day. Yey, today's overall tone is positive, small achievements! ♥
One more thing.
I have a seriously unhealthy affection for Pandora radio...particularly the Passion Pit station I created.
ok, that's it.
Hear: Soft Shock - YeahYeahYeahs (Pandora radio)